You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes
Tuesday, September 27 / 9:49:00 PM
b.l.e.s.s.e.d
striving with all I am.
I am going to work hard and strive in my work, to benefit more people. realized how easy some needs can be met. and yes, I'm talking about prioritized needs here.
I remember hear my colleagues' stories and got to know just how uncertain some things can be. and of cos, I know just how uncertain. Won't elaborate.
When Percy first told me that I won't attract high-end customers or professionals for sure, I was damn upset. But now, I think I'm not made for it yet. And I think I can focus on helping those who seriously need help. Not just those who want to grow more and more $$. Am a bit upset when I hear colleagues who joined just to earn $$. well, honestly, nothing wrong. but, you just don't feel good because you know yes, they have a drive now. but 2 years down the road? 5 years down the road? 10? and when you get sick of all the paperwork, or maybe just this training, will you still think this is the job you want?
I don't know if this is the job I want. we have discussed this many times among ourselves, or within us. But, the more I hear, the more I learn, the more useful all the products seem to be. In fact, some things I read, I think about my friends. and i get even more upset cos i know they don't and won't plan one... some of them just spend everything they earn and live by the day. do i need to remind them to prepare for the future or about the uncertainties? no, they are old enough. they all know. but they still won't do it. because, they haven't seen the need of it. knowing and seeing it has a very different impact, right?
Right now, I am just having fun at the training and trying to put everything together.... but once i'm thrown in the society on my own, i am pretty afraid of getting materialistic like many bankers..
oh well... life is an ultra big word,
You say you really know me
You're not afraid to show me, what is in your eyes
Tuesday, September 27 / 9:49:00 PM
b.l.e.s.s.e.d
striving with all I am.
I am going to work hard and strive in my work, to benefit more people. realized how easy some needs can be met. and yes, I'm talking about prioritized needs here.
I remember hear my colleagues' stories and got to know just how uncertain some things can be. and of cos, I know just how uncertain. Won't elaborate.
When Percy first told me that I won't attract high-end customers or professionals for sure, I was damn upset. But now, I think I'm not made for it yet. And I think I can focus on helping those who seriously need help. Not just those who want to grow more and more $$. Am a bit upset when I hear colleagues who joined just to earn $$. well, honestly, nothing wrong. but, you just don't feel good because you know yes, they have a drive now. but 2 years down the road? 5 years down the road? 10? and when you get sick of all the paperwork, or maybe just this training, will you still think this is the job you want?
I don't know if this is the job I want. we have discussed this many times among ourselves, or within us. But, the more I hear, the more I learn, the more useful all the products seem to be. In fact, some things I read, I think about my friends. and i get even more upset cos i know they don't and won't plan one... some of them just spend everything they earn and live by the day. do i need to remind them to prepare for the future or about the uncertainties? no, they are old enough. they all know. but they still won't do it. because, they haven't seen the need of it. knowing and seeing it has a very different impact, right?
Right now, I am just having fun at the training and trying to put everything together.... but once i'm thrown in the society on my own, i am pretty afraid of getting materialistic like many bankers..
oh well... life is an ultra big word,
So tell me about the rumours
Are they only rumours, are they only lies?
biography
suddenly i'm famous and people know my name
Love me for who I am. Michelle Tham is my name. Jesca is a name I'm trying to forget. Meiqian is what my family and relatives call me by.
I live with my parents, and intend to still live with them even if I ever get married. Drama, acting, singing are my passions which are slowly dying over the years, sadly.
Indecisive as I am, I am an Aries, a rather rash and spontaneous person at times. I don't usually talk alot, but I sure listen alot.
I always think that the ability to listen first before speaking is very important. Yet, because of that, sometimes people think that I listen and not care thereafter.
Well, sometimes I do forget cos of my bad short term memory. Other times, most of the time, I just prefer to think through carefully, on all situations before I speak.
I treasure my friends alot. Most of the time, I put them above boyfriend. HAHA. I may look mature, seem mature, but actually secretly desire to go crazy.
I'm just waiting for someone as spontaneous to bring me along. Passive nature I guess. I enjoy looking through old photos that I decided to make a wall of memories at home.
Its a collation of all the photos over the years. I'm glad it brought loads of joy for my relatives as well when they came over during Chinese New Year.
I'm not getting any younger anymore. 22nd is a birthday that I've stopped counting down to.
I always think that my life hasn't been easy. In fact, it wasn't easy because life was too smooth for a start. And that made it hard to sustain and maintain.
A child who actually asks her parents to not buy her toys cos its too expensive. A child who actually smiles at getting assessment books as birthday present?!?!
you know what I mean? I'm always placed in an awkward position whenever it comes to relationships. I'm responsible for my parents, alone, from the most important and toughest stage in their lives.
I happen to always face the toughest things alone due to many misunderstandings with people or just bad circumstances. Life isn't easy, at home and outside.
It wasn't easy to love my parents with a father who doesn't even bother to remember my birthday or my age, or to love a mother who canes me when I get 95 marks.
It wasn't easy to love my sisters who don't play with me when I was young, or scold me for not studying when I almost killed myself. I used to hate them, to be honest.
But of cos, deep down, I know that they still love me. Even when they failed to understand me, I also know that I failed to tell them about my circumstances.
Most of the time, because I had something to hide from them. And I had to hide some things from them because, well... I would now say its a scar that I want
to hide now. In a way, I don't know if I made the family change to how the way things are now. Sometimes I feel guilty for that.
Like, I'm not having an easy time yet I made it harder for us all as well.
Nevertheless, my life has its brightful side. I enjoyed many moments of my life. And I treasure them. Though some may be both a joy and a hurt simultaneously.
bolditalicunderlinestrikeout
Falling out of a perfect dream
coming out of the blue...is it true, is it over?
comments
you count down ten to one because when on zero you can smile
Did I throw it away? Was it you?
Did you tell me you would never leave me this way?
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down the beaten track, along the river with an empty bank
